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The article below was written in July 2018 when this website was made.....IT is triggering, however, I decided to keep it as it happened...
My advice is to go back to the main menu and select happier celebrations of Jonghyun as I don't want to be responsible for upsetting you.
However, don't let anyone try to stifle your feelings, because they don't want to hear it. Jonghyun cried to you know. If this is how you still feel. then come here and seek solace, join groups, join my group I would be happy to meet you.
There are many groups on Facebook, join these. Click here for a link to mine: Blingtastic Jonghyun
Just meet new people and talk about Jonghyun. This was Jonghyun . This is what he was about. His words helped so many. He stood up for minorities.
We are all in this together. 10 years...15 years...eternity. we feel what WE want to feel about him. Always remember the legend that is Kim Jonghyun. We never know what somebody else is feeling...remember that.
SHINee is Jonghyun. SHINee are 5 forever.
Jonghyun’s final words that leaves an ache in our hearts.
“I worked hard. I worked really hard.”
LEGENDS AREN'T MEANT TO BE FORGOTTEN……….
The article below was written in July 2018 when this website was made.....IT is triggering, however, I decided to keep it as it happened...
My advice is to go back to the main menu and select happier celebrations of Jonghyun as I don't want to be responsible for upsetting you.
However, don't let anyone try to stifle your feelings, because they don't want to hear it. Jonghyun cried to you know. If this is how you still feel. then come here and seek solace, join groups, join my group I would be happy to meet you.
There are many groups on Facebook, join these. Click here for a link to mine: Blingtastic Jonghyun
Just meet new people and talk about Jonghyun. This was Jonghyun . This is what he was about. His words helped so many. He stood up for minorities.
We are all in this together. 10 years...15 years...eternity. we feel what WE want to feel about him. Always remember the legend that is Kim Jonghyun. We never know what somebody else is feeling...remember that.
SHINee is Jonghyun. SHINee are 5 forever.
Jonghyun’s final words that leaves an ache in our hearts.
“I worked hard. I worked really hard.”
LEGENDS AREN'T MEANT TO BE FORGOTTEN……….
The temporary memorial for Jonghyun in Seoul. Over three months, fans gathered in the space to leave thousands of messages and mementos for the late singer.
SHINee was the first K-Pop group I ever heard of. I thought their songs were catchy and I started to follow them and that is where Jonghyun became the one who people would called 'Bias', to me just a man I adored. Yes I adore him and always will. Oh dear god, what a Beautiful Man, and such a talented and successful person..
On 18th December my world fell apart, I don't think I will ever get over that day the news flashing on TV and Social Media, everywhere that Kim Jonghyun had been found unresponsive in a rented apartment in Hwayang-dong, Seoul, South Korea. I felt numb, sick, in total shock. that heart-stopping moment when everything slows and doesn't move, just focused on the echoing going on inside my head.
i just couldn't process the thoughts that were whirring in my mind. How could this be true? he had just completed his inspired concerts 10th of December. How, why??? I scrolled through every article hoping it wasn't true, hoping that he was still alive, but then SM confirmed it, Jonghyun had died in hospital. Jonghyun has died omg...😭in what police have said was an apparent suicide. Why?????? oh Jonghyun you deserved better...😥
I love you Kim Jonghyun, take me with you.
On 18th December my world fell apart, I don't think I will ever get over that day the news flashing on TV and Social Media, everywhere that Kim Jonghyun had been found unresponsive in a rented apartment in Hwayang-dong, Seoul, South Korea. I felt numb, sick, in total shock. that heart-stopping moment when everything slows and doesn't move, just focused on the echoing going on inside my head.
i just couldn't process the thoughts that were whirring in my mind. How could this be true? he had just completed his inspired concerts 10th of December. How, why??? I scrolled through every article hoping it wasn't true, hoping that he was still alive, but then SM confirmed it, Jonghyun had died in hospital. Jonghyun has died omg...😭in what police have said was an apparent suicide. Why?????? oh Jonghyun you deserved better...😥
I love you Kim Jonghyun, take me with you.
Some wording from News Articles i read.....
Reports came through On the web, CCTV footage shows the last time that K-pop star Jonghyun was last seen alive before his tragic death.In the grainy video footage, he could be seen shopping at a convenience store, where the owner says he bought cigarettes, a fizzy drink and some snacks. But when he left the shop, which is attached to a block of apartments he’s said to have stayed in, the store’s security guard claims he started driving up and down the road outside, revving his engine. “After parking his car on the B1 floor, he stood in front of the convenience store on the same floor for a very long time,” the guard told Koreaboo. “After checking in he got in his car and went to the road right in front of the residence and went back and forth making a lot of noise. “He was stepping on the accelerator so hard that the engine was making very loud noises. After a while things got quiet and than the car came back in (to the parking lot).”
Reports came through On the web, CCTV footage shows the last time that K-pop star Jonghyun was last seen alive before his tragic death.In the grainy video footage, he could be seen shopping at a convenience store, where the owner says he bought cigarettes, a fizzy drink and some snacks. But when he left the shop, which is attached to a block of apartments he’s said to have stayed in, the store’s security guard claims he started driving up and down the road outside, revving his engine. “After parking his car on the B1 floor, he stood in front of the convenience store on the same floor for a very long time,” the guard told Koreaboo. “After checking in he got in his car and went to the road right in front of the residence and went back and forth making a lot of noise. “He was stepping on the accelerator so hard that the engine was making very loud noises. After a while things got quiet and than the car came back in (to the parking lot).”
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What followed was reports on Jonghyun being depressed and that saddened me. i knew he had feelings like that but never thought they were so in-depth. he hid it well, he cried at concerts but jonghyun was always sensitive, emotional and not afraid to show his feelings - thats why he was loved by so many. i just felt so sad that he felt that lonely, It breaks my heart that despite his family’s and friends’ support, JongHyun felt so lonely that he thought it’d be best to take this decision. He felt that bad that he believed behind dead was better than being part of this world any longer.
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Following Jonghyun's death, reports say that Nine discussed the matter with the singer's family and she was given their blessing to share Jonghyun's letter as per his final wishes. MBN's report says (as translated by SBS Korea):
"I had the last good bye with JH. I saw his photo smiling and I still feel like JH would come to me and smiles as if it was a dream JH had been telling me some dark and deep inside stories of him since a while ago. Everyday seems tough to him. I was nervous so I let his family knew about it and tried hard to hold him. But it only had delayed it couldn't stop it. JH asked me to upload this note when he is disappeared in this world. I didn't want to see that happens. I have discussed with his family and as JH wished we release the note."
"I had the last good bye with JH. I saw his photo smiling and I still feel like JH would come to me and smiles as if it was a dream JH had been telling me some dark and deep inside stories of him since a while ago. Everyday seems tough to him. I was nervous so I let his family knew about it and tried hard to hold him. But it only had delayed it couldn't stop it. JH asked me to upload this note when he is disappeared in this world. I didn't want to see that happens. I have discussed with his family and as JH wished we release the note."
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종현과 마지막 인사를 하고 왔어요.
웃고 있는 영정사진을 보고서도 저는 여전히 종현이가 제게 다가와 이 모든 게 꿈이었던 것처럼 웃어줄 것 같았습니다.
얼마 전부터 종현이는 제게 어둡고 깊은 내면의 이야기들을 하곤 했어요.
매일같이 많이 힘들었던 것 같아요.
불안한 생각이 들어 가족들에게도 알리고 그의 마음을 잡도록 애썼는데
결국엔 시간만 지연시킬 뿐 그 마지막을 막지 못했습니다.
아직도 이 세상에 그가 없다는 게 믿어지지 않고 너무 괴롭습니다.
지금도 이 글을 올리는게 맞는 건지 겁도 나지만
종현이 본인이 세상에서 사라지면 이 글을 꼭 직접 올려달라고 부탁을 했어요.
이런 날이 오지 않길 바랐는데...
가족과 상의 끝에,그의 유언에 따라 유서를 올립니다.
분명 저에게 맡긴 이유가 있을 거라고 생각해요.
논란이 있을 거란 걱정도 하고 있습니다. 하지만
그마저도 예상하고 저에게 부탁을 했을 거란 생각에 제가 종현이를 위해 할 수 있는 마지막 일을 해야겠다고 결정했습니다.
이제라도 종현이 혼자가 아니었다는 것을 알아주길 바라요.
그리고 수고했다고...정말 잘했다고...
잘 참아줘서 고맙다고 얘기해주세요...
아름다운 종현아 정말 많이 사랑해
앞으로도 많이 사랑할게.
그곳에서는 부디 아프지 않고 평안하기를 바라. .
.
유서 전문입니다.
.
.
난 속에서부터 고장났다.
천천히 날 갉아먹던 우울은 결국 날 집어삼켰고
난 그걸 이길 수 없었다.
나는 날 미워했다. 끊기는 기억을 붙들고 아무리 정신차리라고 소리쳐봐도 답은 없었다.
막히는 숨을 틔어줄 수 없다면 차라리 멈추는게 나아.
날 책임질 수 있는건 누구인지 물었다.
너뿐이야.
난 오롯이 혼자였다.
끝낸다는 말은 쉽다.
끝내기는 어렵다.
그 어려움에 여지껏 살았다.
도망치고 싶은거라 했다.
맞아. 난 도망치고 싶었어.
나에게서.
너에게서.
거기 누구냐고 물었다. 나라고 했다. 또 나라고 했다. 그리고 또 나라고했다.
왜 자꾸만 기억을 잃냐 했다. 성격 탓이란다. 그렇군요. 결국엔 다 내탓이군요.
눈치채주길 바랬지만 아무도 몰랐다. 날 만난적 없으니 내가 있는지도 모르는게 당연해.
왜 사느냐 물었다. 그냥. 그냥. 다들 그냥 산단다.
왜 죽으냐 물으면 지쳤다 하겠다.
시달리고 고민했다. 지겨운 통증들을 환희로 바꾸는 법은 배운 적도 없었다.
통증은 통증일 뿐이다.
그러지 말라고 날 다그쳤다.
왜요? 난 왜 내 마음대로 끝도 못맺게 해요?
왜 아픈지를 찾으라 했다.
너무 잘 알고있다. 난 나 때문에 아프다. 전부 다 내 탓이고 내가 못나서야.
선생님 이말이 듣고싶었나요?
아뇨. 난 잘못한게 없어요.
조근한 목소리로 내성격을 탓할때 의사 참 쉽다 생각했다.
왜 이렇게까지 아픈지 신기한 노릇이다. 나보다 힘든 사람들도 잘만 살던데. 나보다 약한 사람들도 잘만 살던데. 아닌가보다. 살아있는 사람 중에 나보다 힘든 사람은 없고 나보다 약한 사람은 없다.
그래도 살으라고 했다.
종현과 마지막 인사를 하고 왔어요.
웃고 있는 영정사진을 보고서도 저는 여전히 종현이가 제게 다가와 이 모든 게 꿈이었던 것처럼 웃어줄 것 같았습니다.
얼마 전부터 종현이는 제게 어둡고 깊은 내면의 이야기들을 하곤 했어요.
매일같이 많이 힘들었던 것 같아요.
불안한 생각이 들어 가족들에게도 알리고 그의 마음을 잡도록 애썼는데
결국엔 시간만 지연시킬 뿐 그 마지막을 막지 못했습니다.
아직도 이 세상에 그가 없다는 게 믿어지지 않고 너무 괴롭습니다.
지금도 이 글을 올리는게 맞는 건지 겁도 나지만
종현이 본인이 세상에서 사라지면 이 글을 꼭 직접 올려달라고 부탁을 했어요.
이런 날이 오지 않길 바랐는데...
가족과 상의 끝에,그의 유언에 따라 유서를 올립니다.
분명 저에게 맡긴 이유가 있을 거라고 생각해요.
논란이 있을 거란 걱정도 하고 있습니다. 하지만
그마저도 예상하고 저에게 부탁을 했을 거란 생각에 제가 종현이를 위해 할 수 있는 마지막 일을 해야겠다고 결정했습니다.
이제라도 종현이 혼자가 아니었다는 것을 알아주길 바라요.
그리고 수고했다고...정말 잘했다고...
잘 참아줘서 고맙다고 얘기해주세요...
아름다운 종현아 정말 많이 사랑해
앞으로도 많이 사랑할게.
그곳에서는 부디 아프지 않고 평안하기를 바라. .
.
유서 전문입니다.
.
.
난 속에서부터 고장났다.
천천히 날 갉아먹던 우울은 결국 날 집어삼켰고
난 그걸 이길 수 없었다.
나는 날 미워했다. 끊기는 기억을 붙들고 아무리 정신차리라고 소리쳐봐도 답은 없었다.
막히는 숨을 틔어줄 수 없다면 차라리 멈추는게 나아.
날 책임질 수 있는건 누구인지 물었다.
너뿐이야.
난 오롯이 혼자였다.
끝낸다는 말은 쉽다.
끝내기는 어렵다.
그 어려움에 여지껏 살았다.
도망치고 싶은거라 했다.
맞아. 난 도망치고 싶었어.
나에게서.
너에게서.
거기 누구냐고 물었다. 나라고 했다. 또 나라고 했다. 그리고 또 나라고했다.
왜 자꾸만 기억을 잃냐 했다. 성격 탓이란다. 그렇군요. 결국엔 다 내탓이군요.
눈치채주길 바랬지만 아무도 몰랐다. 날 만난적 없으니 내가 있는지도 모르는게 당연해.
왜 사느냐 물었다. 그냥. 그냥. 다들 그냥 산단다.
왜 죽으냐 물으면 지쳤다 하겠다.
시달리고 고민했다. 지겨운 통증들을 환희로 바꾸는 법은 배운 적도 없었다.
통증은 통증일 뿐이다.
그러지 말라고 날 다그쳤다.
왜요? 난 왜 내 마음대로 끝도 못맺게 해요?
왜 아픈지를 찾으라 했다.
너무 잘 알고있다. 난 나 때문에 아프다. 전부 다 내 탓이고 내가 못나서야.
선생님 이말이 듣고싶었나요?
아뇨. 난 잘못한게 없어요.
조근한 목소리로 내성격을 탓할때 의사 참 쉽다 생각했다.
왜 이렇게까지 아픈지 신기한 노릇이다. 나보다 힘든 사람들도 잘만 살던데. 나보다 약한 사람들도 잘만 살던데. 아닌가보다. 살아있는 사람 중에 나보다 힘든 사람은 없고 나보다 약한 사람은 없다.
그래도 살으라고 했다.
Legends aren't meant to be forgotten……….
Written July 2018....
My heart is broken and i don't think i can get over it. every day i think of him, every day i listen to his music, scroll articles read about him. But why jonghyun? why do i still feel this way 8 months on. you have me under your spell baby. i dont think it can be broken......
Following Jonghyun's death on December 18, an investigation into the circumstances of the SHINee singer's passing was launched by the police.
news source: SBS
After two days of investigating, the official findings have been released. According to, a source from the Gangnam police reportedly stated that the results of their investigation concluded that Jonghyun had died by suicide. The police further stated that an autopsy won't be performed as per Jonghyun's family's wishes, and that the investigation will be officially closed after one final interview with
Jonghyun's family.Fans wishing to pay their final respects to the SHINee singer wERE be able to do so at the Asan Medical Centre in Seoul.
He was laid to rest 21st December 2017, 3 days later privately as was his familys wishes.
A person who worked closely with Kim expressed shock at the news, Yonhap news agency said. “I haven’t checked it but ''I heard that he recently signed a car purchase deal. I wasn’t aware he was going through tough times, since he’s been his regular self,” the person said
I won't post up any video of his funeral as it is too heart-breaking.
RIP dear Jonghyun-ah I love you.
Facts are ....He certainly was under a lot of pressure
Did anybody notice the deterioration in Jonghyun...most probably....
he helped others but when he needed help he didn't get i guess what he needed .
We never know what somebody else is feeling...remember that.
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- Official Fansites
- Jonghyun Dating
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- Jonghyun Photos - 2017 and more years.
- WINNING JONGHYUNS NIKE TRAINERS
- Books Jonghyun read…
- Skeleton Flower: Things That Have Been Released and Set Free - A Novel by Kim Jonghyun and books he read.
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- Jonghyun solo promotion and appearances.
- SHINee MV's
- JONGHYUN-X-INSPIRATION & INSPIRED CONCERTS
- AGIT - The Story by Jonghyun
- Blue Night 12am- 2pm
- Blue Night Translations 2017
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- TV Shows -SNL Korea - 3 Minute Friend pt 1-3/I'm Your Fan
-
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- 2009:✿ Dazed and Confused ✿
- 2010 Kool Magazine Volume 1
- 2011 Elle Girl June
- 2013 - Arena Homme Plus - October 2013
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- Jan 2015 - ✿- Honest and sexy - ELLE ✿
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